Category Archives: Insights from my life journey

Create Clarity in uncertainty

How to sail the sea of possibilities
On my spiritual path I have come to a place where I have let go of so many old beliefs and habits that I entered a space that seems filled with possibilities and at the same time completely empty. The old reference points of life purpose, career, linear time, and many others have dissolved.

At times it feels uncomfortable to have no reference points, no pre-described directions to follow. Every moment is an adventure and I am the one who makes up the steps in this whole new way to live. I am the creator of it.

Constant questions are: how do I identify new reference points in this empty vastness, or how do I create a trajectory to move along. Connecting to my soul’s desire through the heart is one way to create reference points and a trajectory. Letting my heart tell me what brings me joy and wellbeing help me to set personal reference points. These reference points guide me in making decisions and point me to new playgrounds. Out of this trajectories appear, for example, communicating with animals, anchoring energy into the Earth through Multidimensional Energy Grids, co-creating with the Elementals, exploring with others who they are and what they really want and being involved in projects that bring wellbeing for all of life on Earth.

My natural abilities provide me also with a compass to determine where to turn in this vast sea of possibilities. Knowing who I am, what I am good at and what I really want to do helps to sail the sea of possibilities. I have a natural gift for clarity. I love to get to the bottom of things. Cutting away confusing pieces to get right to the heart of the matter is great fun for me. I used this skill in science, life coaching and body journeys. Now I aim this skill into a new direction. I come together with fellow travelers to uncover who they are and what their soul projects are. Together we create trajectories and reference point that are aligned with who they are. We create this clarity through conversations in Coaching Sessions and/or through playing the Transformational Discovery Game. We build Multidimensional Energy Grids to birth soul projects and set them in motion.

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Express your vision and bring your soul projects to life

2015-04-24-IMG_0634-abundanceI believe that we have come to Earth so that our soul can experience itself. To do so there are desires we feel that direct us on our journey. Creating a clear vision helps us to express our desires and lay out a playground for our soul. The vision provides a trajectory for our journey. 

2014-09-11-IMG_0380-soul purposeMy vision is a world where we live in respect, harmony and partnership with the Earth and all of life. Together we create well-being for all. 

Use heart-felt energies to express your vision
It took me years to formulate my vision because my brain got in the way. What I could feel around the vision felt big and overwhelming and I got stuck in figuring out how to do it practically. I finally gave up on needing to know how to concretely implement this big vision step-by-step and instead focused on the fundamental energies I felt in my heart – respect, partnership, beauty and wellbeing. Suddenly the vision statement fell into place with ease. 

Our souls are big and want to play
I believe that our souls are big and want us to play big. We can’t grasp with our mind what our soul wants us to experience. Instead of trying to use our mind to figure it out, we can allow our soul to work through us by listening to our heart.  

I enjoy discovering other people’s soul desire, especially when it focuses on creating wellbeing for the Earth. When I partner with someone to uncover their vision, my first step is often to lead them on a journey into the heart. Here we find living words such as beauty, respect, partnership or wellbeing that provide a foundation for the vision. Knowing your personal values, skills, and talents helps in refining the vision, setting specific intentions and creating projects that bring the vision to life.

Energy Grids bring additional information
2015-02-18-IMG_0532-Everest-FarmI love creating energy grids during this process to uncover more clarity for the vision, energetically anchor intentions and explore soul projcts. In this playful and relaxed setting information flows easily through us and the relationships of different aspects of the vision become visible.

The visions and soul projects are big and are long-term
These visions that come through the heart can feel big and overwhelming. It is important to understand that they are not done in a year. 

The visions do not follow linear trajectories
These soul projects do not follow a linear trajectory or linear time. I have experienced times when I am not particular interested in horses but suddenly discover an interest in permaculture, only to find that three months or a year later I am deeply engrossed in liberty work with horses.  

Seeing pieces of the puzzle
More often than not do I see steps or projects within my vision that have seemingly nothing to do with each other. For example I play with financial abundance, socially responsible investment, animal communication, anchoring energy into the Earth and sustainability. These playgrounds often look like isolated puzzle pieces to me and yet, all activities express wellbeing, respect, harmony and partnership with the Earth and all of life. I feel my love for the Earth when I engage in any of these activities.

Being too focused on one approach can interfere with vision
I further discovered that for me that being too focused on a certain approach can interfere with my vision journey, while curiosity and flexibility help it along. I have the desire to learn how to communicate with animals. For years I was disappointed with myself because I didn’t feel any desire to take an animal communication workshop or have animals myself. Staying flexible and following my heart I started inter-species communication with physical trees and learned communication with horses through youtubes and books. My linear intellect would have never come up with this but I have fun and it is working for me.

The vision statement is helpful in staying grounded and provides a trajectory. While I sometimes feel aimless because I don’t have specific linear steps or a label for what I am doing, when I go back to my vision statement I find that I am right on track. 

In summary, if you want to uncover your vision, my suggestion is to go into your heart and allow your desire to fully express itself. Then explore those playgrounds that call to you and feel easy and fun. Keep observing what comes in front of you that might give you a direction or answers the how to express your vision through projects.


shift and anchor energy into the Earth

Like myself, the Earth is ascending into higher consciousness. I am supporting the ascension of the Earth through my personal mental, emotional, physical and spiritual bodywork.

Young treeAdditionally I feel called to shift and anchor energy into the land in certain areas of the Earth. I feel drawn to visit places, participate in gatherings, or meet people ready to partner with me in this adventure. I do this work by:

  • allowing energies to run through my physical body into the heart of the Earth
  • meeting with groups in certain places or at auspicious times to open energy portals, e.g. anchoring energies for tree communication in Sequoia National Park, CA 2013
  • balancing masculine/feminine energy during the June solstice 2015 creating energy grids on the land with groups or by myself
  • anchoring intentions through energy grids with individuals or groups who want to use land for a new purpose, e.g. a forest farm, pollinator garden, soul sanctuary for humans…

Here are some examples:



How do I “Cause as little pain as possible in challenging situations”

When people find themselves in uncomfortable situations where they have to make some courages decisions, they say: “I don’t want to cause anyone pain” or “I just want to keep peace.” They argue for their limitations so they don’t have to step up, using assumed, possible pain of others as an escape route.?

In my experience, when these argument are being spoken and acted upon, then the mental-emotional pain the person wants to prevent is often being increased for all involved.

We cannot control the other person’s mental-emotional pain. We can only discern what decisions and actions feel aligned with our personal truth and act on it. That often takes courage and might create short-term mental-emotional pain for one selves and others. But it opens the door to change and an opportunity to create wellbeing for all in the long-term.

While these situations can feel overwhelming or unsolvable, hiding, avoiding, stepping out of inner alignment, trying to keep peace… do not address the issue and while it might be suppressed for a while it will come up again, most likely in a louder version. In the meantime the situation keeps creating more pain often at an unconscious level. This can continue for a while until the situation has become more complex, sticky, messy and unbearable.  At this point it is much more difficult to clear up.

Instead of running away from the situation, we can align ourselves as best as we can with what feels right in our heart and then stand in for that alignment with respect, compassion and openness. Our alignment might be in contrast to someone else’s opinion, e.g. partner, friend, family… and that is okay.

I believe there is always a solution that is supportive of the wellbeing for all involved. That does not mean that those involved are not being stretched emotionally, mentally and spiritually. However, this stretch is a lot easier to take than the noisy, chaotic mess that can result in avoiding the issue.

We tend to avoid being uncomfortable or in mental-emotional pain. And yet, personal growth and spiritual evolvement bring often states of un-comfortableness and uncertainty to shake us loose from old habits and patterns.

When I started to embrace this concept I found that the beginning stages of discomfort are just a sign for change and that it will pass if I embrace this state and explore the solutions and directions it points me to. If I (and all involved in the situation) resist, the discomfort can grow more painful and it can take longer to establish the new direction and release the accumulated pain.

I am learning to see discomfort as a sign for growth. My approach is to:
•    feel the discomfort,
•    explore the reason for the discomfort
•    observe what solutions present themselves
•    check the solutions with my inner alignment
•    observe some more if nothing feels right
•    make a choice that I sense is in alignment with my heart/soul
•    act with respect, compassion and openness
•    give it my best effort to hold these energies during the process.   

If I don’t like the result, I go through the whole process again, trying out a different pathway. 

I am also learning that it is okay when others are uncomfortable. They have a choice what to do with it. Nobody says life is always comfortable, but we can choose to resist it or work with it. 

Choice is a powerful tool. How do you choose next time you encounter an uncomfortable situation? Will you choose to use the assumed, possible pain of others to stay in victim hood and stuck or use an approach as I described that has the potential to move all involved from uncomfortable to wellbeing.   

What I do with prayer requests

A friend of mine emails prayer requests for members of her spiritual group to me. These requests used to create a dilemma in my space. Prayer felt like a religious activity from the past where I “begged” God for help. The request was also connected to a “should” in my place.  You should pray for this person or send at least some love.

I learned to look at prayer requests differently. I detached the word prayer from the religious background and gave it the meaning of directed intention from the heart. Then I opened myself some more an allowed myself to approach a prayer request in a personalized way:

I started to take a moment, go into my heart, and send some loving energy to the person and all involved in the situation. This energy coming from my heart has no outcome attached to it. This process works at certain times for me.

When a friend of mine asked me a couple times in a row to pray for her I kept feeling uncomfortable about the request. While I wanted to support her, the request felt still like a should. I decided to clear more of my own beliefs and emotions around prayer and take an easy approach. The next time we came together I told her how difficult it is for me to grant her request. That sitting down and creating a form of prayer felt heavy and full of effort. I explained to her that it would be a lot easier for me to actually do something with her about her fears. She accepted and it felt wonderful to use my coaching skills to help her. 

Another friend told me that her sister had just learned about the reoccurring of a 2014-09-17-IMG_0393-Katara-sisterdisease. She didn’t request anything from me however, we had a conversation about her involvement in the situation. When she left I felt drawn to lay a Multidimensional Energy Grid (MEG) for her and her sister. It felt like I was opening a space of connection for them where they could shift some energy if they wanted to. When I was done I sent a photo of the MEG to my friend telling her what I did. She used the energy she received from the MEG to connect with her sister in a higher dimension and initiate a shift in energy around the situation. Afterwards she learned that a mistake was made and the disease had not reoccurred.

A fellow student of the Mastering Alchemy program sent a prayer request out. This wonderful person had reached out to me when I needed financial help, even though he didn’t know me personally. When I received his request I felt that a MEG could be supportive in his connection with his brother. I was grateful that I could return his kindness is such a way.

Another friend asked me to hold space/pray for him while he was working in a potentially dangerous situation with his friend. I envisioned the situation they were working in, created a bubble of protective light around it and asked Archangel Michael for support. Then I set it in place knowing that it was done. That freed me from moving through my day without having to stay focused on the situation.

Prayer triangle easeWhen a friend asked me to hold space/pray for him while he worked with someone who is emotionally challenging we took a moment and felt into the situation, asking what kind of energies would be supportive. The energies of compassion and love seemed to be helpful and together we created them in our hearts directing them into the situation. During that day a third energy, ease, occurred to me and I felt drawn to create a triangle with these words. Using nutshells I laid out the words on the ground.  It felt like this process anchored the energy and also left a reminder for myself and others. I’ll leave it to nature to erase the words when the time is right.

These experiences taught me to be creative around the request of praying by using my unique talents to connect with others. This approach released the resistance towards “praying”, deepens my experience, and makes me feel good during the process.

Anything is possible – Ask for what you really want

Asking for what you really want takes courage
Clarity is important: What do I really wantkeeping the playing field wide open Did I receive what I asked for?
Letting go of how
Asking and receiving the easy way

Anything is possible
We are being told by spiritual leaders and light beings that anything is possible. Deep down I believe this and at the same time I can feel the doubt generated by my intellect. 

On my current life journey I keep exploring this possibility that anything is possible. There are moments when I feel frustration or despair because I find myself in intense uncomfortable situations. During other moments I am filled with awe because something I thought intellectually impossible happened. These moments of surprise and awe, when the seemingly impossible is happening, keep me going.

Here are some of my discoveries along this path: 

Asking for what you really want takes courage
I learned that in order to find out what is possible I have to ask for what I really want. If I only ask for what I believe is possible I am not fully true to myself and this introduces interferences in the energy flow.

It takes courage to ask for what I really want. What if I don’t receive what I ask for? I used to think that would mean the end to ever receiving what I asked for. However I discovered that there is a simple answer: refine your request. Nothing is written in stone so to speak. Intentions and creations can be adjusted. 

The other concern that used to linger in my space was: Careful what you ask for. Here too I found that I can always adjust my creation. One thing I asked for is to overcome my fear of money. The result was that I received a lot of opportunities to be with fear around money. It took me a while to really understand what I was doing. Instead of giving up I adjusted my request. I stopped focusing on the fear and asked for what I really wanted: long-lasting, dependable, plentiful currency flow in easy delightful ways. I added the easy, delightful way part to the request because I had heard stories where people received a lot of money but only through personal hardship. I wanted to make clear that I wanted to create this currency flow through ease and delight.

Clarity is important: What do I want?
Asking for what I really want requires clarity. I often can say what I don’t want but finding what I want can take some soul searching. 

After 18 years away from horses I suddenly felt drawn to connect, communicate and learn from them. My intellect stepped in. I thought I should be physically with horses or even have one myself. But that felt overwhelming. The result, I started beating myself up about it. 

I didn’t know how to express this deep yearning I felt in my heart. I finally moved the intellect to the side and listened to my heart. Here I found energies of living words such as connection, communication, co-creation, equal and joyous partnership, that captured the deep yearning. 

This energetic foundation created clarity and certainty in my space. It provided me with reference points I could hold without needing to know details. While holding this energetic platform, opportunities for activities showed up: attending a coaching with horses workshop, reading books that explore horse communication through energy, watching youtubes of some teachers that seemed aligned with what I was looking for, living on a horse farm for half a year, learning about Equine Assisted Learning and doing it myself. The different opportunities showed up when I was ready for the experience. Each allowed me to discover and hone abilities around horses I didn’t know I had.

I have used the living words in many other situations to express what I felt deep inside me and allowed that energetic platform to draw opportunities to me.

Keeping the playing field wide open
The advantage of these energetic platforms is that I have a focus and at the same time can leave the field wide open for opportunities. I kind of step back and observe what shows up in front of me. I let my desire lead me here. When opportunities show up I “run” them through my heart to feel how aligned they are. From here I make a choice: yes, no or refinement of the opportunity. 

Of course I also have a choice to express my desire more specific. If I come across something like a workshop or gathering and I feel a strong reaction in my heart to attend then I set a clear intention to attend this event: I intend to take a coaching with horses workshop to explore the human-horse relationship. Even more specific I intend to participate in the coaching with horses workshop in May with Kathy Pike. 

I only choose to be that specific if it deeply resonates in my heart. Sometimes when a desire feels vast and a little bit overwhelming, my intellect is impatient and tries to latch onto something specific. Once I realize what is going on, I stop myself, breathe for a moment and go back to observing the playing field in front of me. 

Did I receive what I asked for?
There are times I feel frustrated because I think I don’t seem to receive what I am asking for. Sometimes a second look is worthwhile. 

Too focused on a specific outcome
I wanted to learn how to communicate with animals, plants and minerals. My intellect had latched onto one outcome: telepathic communication like the animal communicators seem to do. For years I kept asking for animal communication over and over and at times I got frustrated and started beating myself up. 

What I overlooked was that in my own way I had started to communicate with trees, understood communication through energy with horse on a much deeper level, and had experiences exchanging images and heart-felt vibrations with mountains. All of that I nearly missed to recognize because I was so focused on one outcome of my intention.

Outcomes are possible beyond what I can imagine
I was drawn to go to Egypt to anchor energy with the Magdalene Order. I participated in their preparation calls, got the travel information, saw myself and her having fun in Egypt and set an intention in motion together with my friend who also participated. In the end I couldn’t get the finances together to go physically on the trip. 

What happened instead was that I traveled spiritually, kind of riding on the shoulder of my friend who went on the trip. During the duration of the trip I had several occasions where I felt deeply connected to the group. My friend told me that she and one of the leaders of the group felt my presence in a couple places where the group meditated. I never would have thought that I would participate in trip in this way. Interestingly, while part of me was traveling spiritually in Egypt, the physical part of me went on a parallel adventure to Colorado working with the Rocky Mountains and to Minneapolis to work on financial abundance.   

Since then I experienced this form of participation during other trips. When my friend went to Hawaii to do some energy work I actually felt viscerally a part of me leaving to go with her. 

Letting go of how 
When I find the courage to express what I really want, my intellect immediately screams: HOW? I learned to move that question aside. When I stretch myself emotionally and mentally into a new adventure, the how question feels like lead, keeping me on the ground. I need to soar first, feel the energy of the living words in my heart and my whole body. From there most of the time I step back and observe what opportunities are showing up instead of trying to figure intellectually out how to proceed. 

In Dec 2013 I left Iowa to find a new home. While I knew I wanted to live in the mountains, I had no clue geographically where that home would be or how I would even afford it. I had a strong sense that I needed to let go of most of my stuff, pack the rest into a trailer and drive to Minnesota to spend some time with a friend. 

During the packing I received a pointer to Colorado and decided to fly from Minneapolis to Denver to find out if this is where I needed to live next. This trip turned into amazing work with the Rocky Mountains and the clarity that this wasn’t my next home. Back in Minnesota I kept sensing into the geographic location of my new home. The only place that kept floating around in my space was Asheville. I liked the idea because besides loving mountains I thrive when plant live have plenty of water to show saturated colors and Western North Carolina looked pretty green to me.

I still hadn’t a clue how all this could work out. I didn’t know North Carolina, had no connections and hardly any money. However, there was a strong sense that in the last week of Dec I would be stable. So while my intellect was in overdrive, trying to figure out the how, I took all the courage I could muster and trusted in the sense of stability at the end of the month. 

While in Asheville, I learned that I needed to get into the car and just start driving around. My second trip in this fashion brought me to Mars Hill, NC. I loved that little town, its mountains and its energy. I didn’t want to leave. So on Christmas Eve I moved from Asheville into a hotel in Mars Hill. The problem was I couldn’t afford staying in hotels. On Dec 26 I stopped at a tourist center in Mars Hill to ask if they knew about temporary housing. Sandy, the lady in the tourist center was very kind and after some back and forth she remembered someone who could have something for me.

This is when the magic really became apparent. Sandy called Tom and told him what I was looking for. Tom said that I could have his house in a week. I nearly declined the offer because I needed something right now but I had nothing to lose and agreed to meet Tom. When he arrived he offered me a ride in his car to check out his house. During the drive he asked me where I was currently staying and I told him that I didn’t have anything for the night yet. He said that this was ridiculous and that I could stay in their house. Tom and his wife had moved to another town and where thinking of selling or renting the house. His son wasn’t due to arrive for a week and Tom said that if I could just leave for that one night I could stay immediately. 

When we came to his house my jaw dropped. Two beautiful outside dogs greeted me. The house was built organically into the woods with a great view through big windows. It had eight bedrooms, two of which where in the basement temporarily rented to a family. I thought I was in a dream. We settled on a rent for the month that I could afford and that was nowhere close to what people ask for a vacation rental. What boggled my mind was that Tom would just trust me. When I told him about it he said that he could judge people easily and he trusted me. 

To put the icing on the cake for this experience, I ended up staying in this house for over a year. It was an amazing experience. I learned that figuring things out is can be overrated. What really counts is trusting in your heart and letting go of the “how”.

Asking and receiving the easy way
I wished I would be in the habit of asking and receiving in the easy way I have observed on many occasions. I utter a desire without any attachment – Oh wouldn’t it be fun to have lunch at this place – and then completely forget about it. And sure enough I nearly instantaneously receive an email from a friend inviting me to lunch in that place. These heart moments take my intellect by surprise and express what I really want in that very moment. It feels beautiful, innocent and easy.

Wouldn’t it be nice to be so present in each moment that I just utter a desire and it manifests. Of course it means that I really have to master my thoughts and emotions, otherwise I would have interesting experiences for sure.  

My sense is that the more I keep consciously asking for what I really want the more I will encounter these moments. Practicing alignment, clarity, observing, detaching, and letting go, will speed up the receiving. 


Heart-based fee for coaching sessions

2014-10-19-IMG_0419-heart base currencyMy first steps to determine appropriate service fees
Free sessions feel out of balance
Charging low or high rates
Sliding scales resulted in negotiation
Intuitive rates, a first step into the right direction
Heart-based fee takes everyone into consideration

My first steps to determine appropriate service fees

Since I started my own business in 2006 I have played with different forms or payment because many people told me they couldn’t afford coaching sessions. Trying to find a solution that works for all of us I offered sessions for free, barter, low fees, high fees, and fees on a sliding scale. Nothing seemed to work until I created the heart-based fee.

At the start of my own business I was very enthusiastic, wanting everyone to be able to have coaching sessions. At the same time I tried to make a living. I looked what other coaches charged, anywhere from $0 to $10.000 per hour. I started with a low fee to attract clients, not daring to ask for higher fees in fear that people would not come. If I learned one thing in the last years, it is that it doesn’t really matter how much money you charge. If people are not ready to fully embrace your service they will focus on the money as an obstacle. Here are some of my experiences and insights

Free sessions feel out of balance

People enjoy free sessions with me, they gain clarity, love spending time with me and very rarely come back. Others don’t show up for the free sessions mostly because they are not committed to change. Now it makes sense to me because the energy exchange is not balanced.

For one thing, those seeking free service often miss the desire and commitment needed to do the work that results from my sessions. On a scale zero to ten, with ten they can hardly wait to work with me, they usually are below a seven. It takes courage to stretch yourself and reveal clarity.  Your desire helps you overcome the uncertainty and fear that might be in your space.

Further, I had to ask myself why I was offering sessions for free: Did I want to fix people; was I afraid nobody would pay for my service; did they reflect my fear of money… Walking my talk, I did my own emotional and mental work and stopped offering free sessions because they didn’t felt aligned with whom I want to work with and the often life changing insights I offer to people in these sessions.

Charging low or high rates doesn’t feel right

Offering sessions for a low fee is similar to free sessions. From a marketing stand point, there are a lot of advantages using low fees.  While I understand a lot about marketing, it doesn’t feel good to me to lure people into sessions with low fees. It creates resentment in my space.

As coaches we were taught to step into high rates that reflect our worth. Questions I tried to answer were: How can a money amount reflect my skill and self-worth? What price can you put on an hour that might change your life? Struggling with the answers I tried the high pricing on. It helped me strengthen my self-esteem but had an energy of daring to push the limits. I played here for a while but it didn’t feel right either.

Sliding scales resulted in negotiation

Trying to accommodate the varying incomes of my clients I set a sliding scale. The result was that people tried to negotiate with me to get to lower parts of the scale. It kept my clients in victim mode and didn’t make me feel appreciated. The result was more mental clearing on my side and looking for a better solution.

Intuitive rates, a first step into the right direction

I finally let go of all the marketing strategies and explored intuitive approaches. I started by asking my heart for a number that would be appropriate for sessions. This approach started to feel better and yet people still stayed in victim mode, telling me that they couldn’t afford sessions. How could I accommodate the different life circumstances and share the responsibility of setting the fee. That is when I came up with the heart-based rate.

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I believe that our hearts know what is right for everyone involved in a particular situation. When I use the heart-based rate, I help my partner to step out of the brain and into her heart. Here she asks what the appropriate rate for the session is. Appropriate means, considering all people involved, the impact of the session, length of the session, financial situation and so on.

To implement the heart-based rate I had to trust that we are indeed all one and that my partner’s heart would know what would be appropriate for both of us. I had to be willing to accept the number my partner received.

I remember the first person who was willing to play with me in this way. When I led her into her heart she got two numbers, one from her brain and the other from her heart. She was excited that she could distinguish the two of them and could feel how the brain number came from a place of fear. Choosing the dollar amount she received from her heart made her feel physically good on a deep level and felt aligned with her soul. Feeling her alignment brought tears to my eyes. I could feel her beauty and felt deeply appreciated. What a wonderful gift we gave each other. I knew I had found the right way for me to determine the energy exchange for my services.

Since then I have used the heart-based rate for my clarity sessions, energy grids and workshops. Over and over I experienced the beauty and appreciation that results from a deep heart alignment.

I believe that our heart knows what is right for all of us and I am delighted that my partners and I now share the responsibility of determining the money exchange. We come together in a co-creative partnership, open our hearts fully and trust each other deeply.

I love that the heart-based fee not only takes the individual person into account but also the particular session. Circumstance change, sessions vary in length and impact. The heart-based fee determined at the end of the session reflects that.

At first people find the idea of a heart-based rate uncomfortable. They would like to know ahead of time what to pay, worry if the number they perceive might be too high or too low. I understand these worries. I have stretched myself many time into trusting myself and found it very rewarding. I am delighted to provide those who want to play with me with an opportunity to trust themselves. I am here to ease the process, holding a space of love, beauty, certainty and wellbeing.



Creating a long-lasting, dependable, plentiful currency (money) flow in easy delightful ways

Working as a life coach for a while I could observe the fear most of us have around money from many different aspects. When I entered my spiritual path with Mastering Alchemy I came to a point where I had enough. I was tired of being afraid of not having enough money and hearing the fears of others about the same issue. I decided having an 8 to 5 job is only one way to create money flow. There had to be another way; a path on which I could do what I felt drawn to do and receive money from all kind of different sources. This opened a whole new playground.

I started out with the intention to overcome my fear of money. Although somehow I knew that wasn’t the best thing to focus on I played there anyway. After an enormous amount of emotional and mental clearing and creating many opportunities to be afraid of money and moving somehow through them, I came to the point when I was ready to change my focus. I created a new intention: I am creating a long-lasting, dependable, plentiful currency flow in easy delightful ways. I used the word currency to replace money after a conversation with a friend. My friend told me that in a channeling session Metatron suggested to replace the word money with a different term. The word money has a lot of energy strings attached to it. My friend replaced it with curentcy and I changed it to currency. I immediately could feel the flow of energy which I love.

I then started playing with the intention. I would feel into it. Imagine how it would be to have a lot of currency. Then I started dancing and singing the intention. I created a new strong reference point so that when I started to be afraid not to have enough money I could move myself out of the fear and turn into the new direction of what I actually wanted. I dance and sang for over half a year.

During this time I started laying the Multidimensional Energy Grids and often felt drawn to lay financial abundance grids alone or with others. Here are some examples:

Here are some experiences from the Currency Playground:

Surprising Support
When I left Iowa in Dec 2013 I had roughly $2000 and no regular income. I didn’t know where to live next and how to do it. Intuition brought me to North Carolina. During this transition time I connected with my aunt and uncle, whom I didn’t have a lot of contact with. They assured me that they would help me when they could and paid the rent for Jan. My parents gave me a load of $5000 that supported me for a little bit.

Determined to explore this unusual path I decided to create some credits cards debts, something I had never done before. I knew myself as paying on time and never having debts. It was one of those scary aspects of this playground where I nearly keeled over in fear.

I drew the line for the credit cards and faced the month, not knowing how to pay the bills. A very close friend of mine who is one of the few who knew the full extend of my journey, sent me a surprising currency gift via paypal. During the next months she and a second friend seemed to give me a financial uplift when I didn’t know how to continue. The love of these friends and the continuous willingness to share what they had with me changed how I look at the world and taught me patience, generosity and neutrality.

I met a woman in a workshop and she hired me to lay a MEG with her. When we did the heart-based fee she felt guided to give me a generous check. I was blown away, as it covered the rent for the next month.

Other surprising support came in form of a free hair cut, paying for several horse related online classes, inviting me to lunch and dinner, giving me car rides, offering places to stay, selling my jewlery… All these experience kept me motivated to continue on this path learning that indeed currency flow can come from anywhere.

The love wave
It was towards the end of a month and the bills for rent and such where coming in. I had no clue how to pay for them. I was ready to pack my few belongings into the car and see where to go next. A week before I had to pay bills I asked for guidance to create an easy and delightful currency flow. At that time I transcribed the Mastering Alchemy classes and made the transcription available to fellow participants. I wrote an email explaining that I would not be able to continue the transcriptions, as I hadn’t a clue where I would end up in a week.

What happened then was life changing. Many participants emailed me sending love and appreciation for the work I had done to transcribe the class and also to support me with energy in this difficult situation. Others shared currency with me, whatever then where able to share given their situation. For the next week I had to often step away from the emails coming in because they touched me so deeply. I had to allow myself to cry in gratitude and sheer awe. Then I had to expand my heart because it kept contracting never having received such a tidal wave of love. Another learning curve was finding words of gratitude that expressed my appreciation and at the same time allowing my energy of who I am to be present. This was not about stepping into poor me mode, rather stepping into my power, knowing that I made the choice to play here and to send out my appreciation and love.

There is always more
I added a new mantra to my intention: There is always more. The first time I played with it was on a walk in the woods. I came to a clearing looking at the beautiful landscape trying to find courage and strength. I had to pay a bill, which would leave me with $20 in the bank. I felt scared and pretty upset with myself. So I mentally stamped my foot on the ground and said something like, okay I have been told that there is always more so lets find out. I will pay the bill and expect that somehow I will receive more currency.

Shortly after paying the bill I indeed received some currency through yet another unexpected source. Since then I have been many times at the point where I had $10 in the bank and the mantra helped me through it.

I also saw a pattern I didn’t like. How I would have some currency and then drop to hardly any flow at all, e.g. $10 in the bank. How to change this pattern? I decided to test the concept of There is always more, in a new way. Here and there I consciously would pay for things I didn’t really need, e.g. chocolate, a book. Stretching myself slowly into this new aspect of the game to observe how indeed there is always more.

Am I experiencing my fear or society’s fear?
I have been able to explore this path because I am willing to face and clear emotional, mental, physical and spiritual energy moving through me.

There have been times when I wondered what else I possibly could clear to experience the long-lasting, dependable, plentiful currency flow. I found that some of the emotions and thoughts I have been dealing with are not really mine. I would feel balanced and centered and from today to tomorrow I would fall into a state of fear that would surprise even me. Yes, I might at that point have not much currency myself but the strength of the emotions would make no sense. I believe in these cases that there somewhere in the world something happened with currency and a wave of fear was produced that reached me. I further believe that because I intentional play with currency and still have some sensitivities around it I feel the wave so strongly. I observed that from one day to the next I can wake up feeling perfectly balanced again while my currency situation hadn’t changed.

I worked through these phases using all the energy tools I have gathered over the years. This continued work has gotten me to a point where I my body feels much more quiet and doesn’t seem to be effected by society in such a strong way.

Why do I keep playing here?
As you can imagine from my story, this is not a very comfortable playground to play in. So, why don’t I just go and get work?

Maybe because I like to grow and walking this path feels aligned with who I am. Maybe because I played so long the way society plays and didn’t feel much better doing it.

I have done all my mental, emotional and spiritual work because I believe that we all can live in wellbeing. It makes no sense to me that life is about hard work and suffering. So, I turned onto a different path and I keep walking it, knowing that becomes easier with experience and increases the neutrality and calmness in my body that enables me to create more masterfully.

Investing currency with your values
One of the amazing surprises came from a friend who offered me a small share in an investment. This generous gesture opened a new door. I had never really thought of investment when I said currency can come from all kind of different sources.

Of course when I worked as a scientist I invested in a retirement fund, social security and a mutual fund. Here the question was always: how can I make the most money. I lost of lot of the retirement savings during the down turn of the market and still decided to cut my losses and cash in the retirement to pay for my spiritual journey. So when the investment opportunity came I had a clean slate so to speak.

As life tends to happen, I came across a book in the public library called: Investing With Your Values: Making Money and Making a Difference by Hall and Jack Brill and Cliff Feigenbaum. I love the idea that my money can support projects I want to see in the world and then they in turn support my living. What a beautiful loop of giving and receiving, driven by my personal values. Suddenly investing feels like it could be a fun opportunity.